Out of Body

I just had the weirdest experience. I think that I was playing with things that I don't really understand, and quite rightly feel odd.

Perhaps I should start from the start. That might help. And I'm telling you right now that I probably sound completely mad. For that, I apologise.

Remember when I was talking about the White Light trick? It's basically a shield against negative energy, taught to me ages ago by my mother. I've used it when I've felt threatened or bombarded with too many people... Like on the tram, when a whole lot of crazy people get on and start swearing and fighting. Just as a bit of a back-up. Well, a step up from that is the cleansing part. Supposedly, if you have negative energy in you, you can pull it out and encapsulate it within white light, therefore getting rid of it, right? Until tonight, I wasn't quite sure if it worked (still not) but what the hell, right? Can't do any harm.

After an hours-long chat with Ash, I attempted to clear something from her. A negative energy. What my mother would call a 'gorbie.' You know, something... wrong. This is going to sound completely odd, but... It was hard. I used the shield trick, and tried to get rid of it... And I think it went. Afterwards, I felt all weird and shaky and... Not myself. Not myself at all. But, I think I'm better now...

Wow. That was completely weird. I shouldn't mess around with that shit. I must sound nuts, but I felt completely strange afterwards. Like I had been drinking or I was on something. Huh.

I guess I'm feeling better now. But still. That was really, really weird.

And I sound nuts. Oh, good.